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  books:
    - 'King Me'
    - 'The Heart of a Warrior'
    - 'Search and Rescue'
    - 'Hearing God'
    - 'It’s Your Call'
    - 'Wild At Heart'
    - '​​Fathered By God'
    - 'Mere Christianity'
  birth_day: '18'
  birth_month: January
  birth_year: '1965'
  call: 'For my brothers and sisters at Zoweh…any time you want!!'
  discover: 'Exploring More Podcast'
  email: davidtusmc@gmail.com
  experience: 'I believe, with the exception of last year, I’ve been to a Heart Of A Warrior weekend every year since 2014, the first one or two being Top Gun weekends. I’ve attended one Heart Of A Warrior advanced weekend, and been a medic on several other weekends. I have read Wild at heart , Heart Of A Warrior, Search and Rescue, It’s Your Call, and a number of other John Eldridge books and books referenced in the Heart Of A Warrior weekends'
  family: 'I am humbly and gratefully, married to my beautiful wife of 26 years, Kerry. We have a blended family of five children, and recently celebrated the birth of our fifth grandchild.'
  first_name: David
  heard: 'I already shared one time in my response about a wounding moment, but another time was when God took me back to a time when again I was a young boy. Dad had taken me with him to somewhere where they were moving dirt with wheelbarrows. Wanting to impress and prove myself to my dad, when a full one was left unattended for a moment, I tried to move it but instead tipped it over dumping out all the dirt that then had to be reloaded. My dad’s response was disappointment and disdain. The message I received, as God explained to me, was that I didn’t measure up; that I wasn’t enough. It was a message that was reaffirmed countless times over the course of my young and adult life, with every praise, big or small, was always followed with a “but”. There was always something I could’ve done better.  It manifested in a debilitating perfectionism that, if I wasn’t confident I could do something perfect, I did nothing at all. It is something I still am walking through with God.'
  last_name: Townsend
  listening: 'Just my experiences both meeting with Medics at Heart of a Warrior weekends as well as serving as the same. Jim Chenet has been a big influence in that area. I confess though that I oft times offered validation as God revealed things in my listening, and I’m not sure that was part of the program, so I haven’t signed in for that role recently so as not to misrepresent.'
  mobile_phone: '2032282090'
  reference_email: marcusevans22@live.com
  reference_first_name: Marcus
  reference_last_name: Evans
  reference_phone: '8608308133'
  story: 'Usually, if I’m talking to a man, my walk with God comes up. But as for sharing my Jesus story, most recently was this past September when the Archbishop of The First Cathedral here in Bloomfield, Connecticut, called me out of the audience at a Tuesday night Bible study, saying that God had put me in his heart and he wanted me to bring the message the following week. I humbly but excitedly responded that if he was offering I gladly accepted. My first thought as to what to teach on was intimacy with God. It is the focus of my heart and any conversation I can work it into. But, I committed to God to seek Him for what He would have me to teach on. A couple of topics came up in that week, and I was convinced on Thursday of what He’d wanted me to speak on. It wasn’t until Friday that He told me to go ahead and speak on intimacy with Him. While I wrote pages of notes, when Tuesday night came, I found that the notes became only a reference, the Holy Spirit  gave me the freedom to speak from my heart and just tell my story, which, as always, included many a reference to all I’d learned from my Zoweh experiences, as well as many testimonies of how God has ministered to me as a result of my intimacy with Him. It was a most humbling and gratifying experience to hear, that night and the weeks following , the positive feedback from those who were there and even some who had joined online that night. To God be the glory!'
  terms: 'Those are the ways in which a man responds to the wounding moments in his life, when the enemy, capitalizing on his weakened state of heart and mind, sold him a bill of lies about who he was and/or who God was. A man walks away from those moments oft times vowing to never, or to always. Or he makes agreements, unwittingly with the lies about his identity, believing himself to be less significant than the role for which God created him to play in the larger story.'
  testimony: 'While I always July 1985 as being when I was saved I’ve since realized that I may have only acknowledged Jesus as savior but had not given him worship. There were many years of trying to be what I thought. God wanted me to be, found myself feeling miserably, no matter how hard I tried. The year before my first Top Gun weekend I was active in church, and had started a men’s ministry that I facilitated with what little understanding I had at the time. By the grace of God, in that first year, I was introduced to Zoweh. That was the beginning of the relationship with God I could never have imagined. I believe that was when I first experienced Jesus in a personal way. The rest is history, and that still being written.'
  warfare: 'I am most grateful to Michael Thompson‘s explanation of the spiritual battle into which we were born. The battle between good and evil, and light and darkness. The battle for my heart from which, as Proverbs 4:23 teaches, all that I do comes from. With that knowledge came the clarity I needed to partner with God for the restoration and healing of my own heart so that I might then fight for the hearts of all those God would entrust to me. I became more intentional in both my own restoration and discerning the opportunities God presented with my increasing orientation.'
  why: 'Over the last several years of walking in a growing intimacy with God, I have found myself on countless occasions sitting with a man, listening to his story, and responding with a wisdom not my own. It was not until after many of these occasions that the Holy Spirit affirmed my being trusted with the heart that was just offered to me. I was then reminded of Michael Thompson‘s charge that when a man was walking with God, oriented and settled in heart , God would bring mission to him. It off times left me weeping in humility to have been found worthy of such an honor. Having gone through the experiences in my life, all its wounding moments, and the subsequent chaos there of, then the journey of recovery and restoration that God offered in my intimate pursuit of Him, I believe he has equipped me, and is equipping me, for such a role as this. Let me make it clear, He is my only boast. It is not me but Christ, who lives in me, and in whom I strive to abide.'
  wound: 'One of the first wounding moments or experiences that God took me back to the onset of this journey after my first weekend was when I was about, I believe five or six years old, if my mother was right. My dad had taken me haying at a friend’s farm in a neighboring town. When night had come, he and the friends we’ve been working with went out drinking. He left me at one of the friends’ house and never came back for me. My mother found me the next morning. It should be a journey from house to house in search of me. God took me back to that moment, or experience, and told me that that’s where my fear of abandonment had come from, that I wasn’t worth coming back for. That had manifested itself in my breaking up with many women in my youth thinking I wasn’t worth it so before they left me, I moved on to the next. That was one of many that God has since shown me.'